Life @ Work

Here i am sitting in my office @ night...Thinking hard about life.
How it changed from a maverick collage life to strict professional life...
How tiny pocket money changed to huge monthly paychecks but then why it gives less happiness...
How a few local denim jeans changed to new branded wardrobe but then whythere are less people to use them...
How a single plate of samosa changed to a full Pizza or burger But thenwhy there is less hunger...
Here i am sitting in my office @ night...Thinking hard about life.
How it changed...
How a bike always in reserve changed to bike always on but then whythere are less places to go on...
How a small coffee shop changed to cafe coffee day but then why itsfeels like shop is far away...
How a limited prepaid card changed to postpaid package but then whythere are less calls & more messages...
Here i am sitting in my office @ night...Thinking hard about life.
How it changed...
How a general class journey changed to Flight journey But then why thereare less vacations for enjoyment...
How a old assembled desktop changed to new branded laptop but then whythere is less time to put it on...
How a small bunch of friends changed to office mate but then why after8'o Clock it always feel like getting late...
Here i am sitting in my office @ night...Thinking hard about life.
How it changed...how it changed...how it changed...

Mujhko yakeen hai.....

Mujhko yakeen hai......

Sach kehti thi, jo bhi amme kehti thi -
Jab mere bachpan k din the chand mein pariyan rehti thi-
Ek ye din jab apno ne bhi humse nata tod liya-
Ek wo din jab ped ki shake bhoj hamara sehti thi...
Ek ye din jab sari sadke roothi-roothi lagti hai-
Ek wo din jab aayo khele saari galiyan kehti thi...
Ek ye din jab jaagi ratein deewaron ko takti hai-
Ek wo din jab shaamo ki bhi palkein bhojal rehti thi...
Ek ye din jab laakho gam aur kaal pada hai aansoo ka-
Ek wo din jab ek jara si baat pe nadiyan behti thi...
Mujhko yakeen hai.........

The Quater-Life Crisis

The Quarter-Life Crisis

It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that
there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not
like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two,
but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start
realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you
thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever
met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really
cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be
doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have
to start at the bottom and are scared.

You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same
people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so
great after all. You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and
do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing
and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize
that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of
what is acceptable and what is not. You are insecure and then secure. You laugh
and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and
confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with
dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away
and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent
enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too
and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and
acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions
and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics
because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for
yourself and while wining the race would be great, right now you'd just like to
be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates
to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we
can to figure this whole thing out.

Aaj hum unhe bewafa bata kar aye hai;
unke khato ko paani me baha ke aaye hai;
koi padh na le un khato ko paani se nikal ke;
isliye paani me bhi aag laga ke aaye hai!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Looking back,what i miss the most is not that i lost everything i wanted to have...I lost even that i knew i always had !!!!

---Letting go is never easy but once u let go of something or sumbody u are left with nothing else but hope and despair.Life is a long journey,i hope sumday i will be able to connect all the dots that i am leaving behind in my life...Sumday i wish that i will be able to understand why we find what we must loose,love what we must leave and hope what we know cannot happen.

I have never asked for much. Like everybody else, i know the odds are
always against us.that's the way the universe works. I don't want gurantees,
promises, assurances or false hopes. All i have ever asked for is one chance to
try and give it my best shot. Suceed of fail, live or die, if i know i tried,
then i can accept whatever happens.

-SPIDERMAN

रशमि के लिये ...

बहुत कुछ कहना है तुमसे
नहीं जानता क्या
पर जानता हूँ
बहुत कुछ कहना है
एक मौका देती है
हर मुलाकात तुम्हारी
पर शब्द नहीं मिलते
शब्द मिलते हैं तो
जुड़ नहीं पाते
जुड़ने की कोशिश में
फ़िर बिखर जाते
मानो कोई महल हो
ताश के पत्तों का
एक पत्ता गलत लग गया
तो सारे गिर जाते हैं
फिर सोचता हूँ नया नक्शा
और एक महल बनाता हूँ
वो भी गिर जाता
या शायद मैं गिराता हूँ
बन ना सका महल तो
पर इस जुस्तज़ू में
नक्शे भरना सीख गया हूँ
कह ना सका
तुमसे दो लव्ज़ भी
पर दिन भर बातें
खुद से करना सीख गया हूँ

Realization...

मेरी खामोशियों में भी फसाना ढूंढ लेती है

बड़ी शातिर है ये दुनिया बहाना ढूंढ लेती है

हकीकत जिद किए बैठी है चकनाचूर करने को

मगर हर आंख फिर सपना सुहाना ढूंढ लेती है

न चिडि़या की कमाई है न कारोबार है कोई

वो केवल हौसले से आबोदाना ढूंढ लेती है

समझ पाई न दुनिया मस्लहत मंसूर की अब तक

जो सूली पर भी हंसना मुस्कुराना ढूंढ लेती है

उठाती है जो खतरा हर कदम पर डूब जाने का

वही कोशिश समन्दर में खजाना ढूंढ लेती है.

Leisure.

Leisure by W.H. Davies

WHAT is this life if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare?—

No time to stand beneath the boughs,

And stare as long as sheep and cows:

No time to see, when woods we pass,

Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass:

No time to see, in broad daylight,

Streams full of stars, like skies at night:

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,

And watch her feet, how they can dance:

No time to wait till her mouth can

Enrich that smile her eyes began?

A poor life this if, full of care,

We have no time to stand and stare.